Happy New Year! And welcome back to the blog. I am mostly welcoming myself back to the blog. Welcome back to the blog Jenna. Time to write and share again. This year is going to be a good year, I can feel it. I remember the last time I felt like it was going to be a really good year. And I was right. That year was a good year. This year feels fresh and clear. Like I have clear foresight and energy to do the work I want to do. And I know- it’s 2020, 20/20 vision blah blah. But it’s real! Also, my cousin told me that December and January is the most productive time of the year as far as astrology goes. Which I did not know but I think it really stuck in my brain because I am getting shit done. -I’m glad she told me because I do not think I would be as productive otherwise. I could feel in December that this January was going to be good. Often times January is not good for me. It’s a major let down after the holidays and I often feel lonely, lethargic, and unmotivated. There were a few days when this definitely set in. It was so amazing to be home in Colorado for so long over the holidays. I actually got a great amount of time with my family. And got to see all my friends from home. And watched lots of movies. (Although the time at home never feels like quite enough lately). Then I got to spend New Years in Charlotte with Joe’s family. Coming back to New York after being away is always a bit of a shock to your system. So much stimulus and noise and so many people. So for a few days, yes it was quite a bit sad. But then the speed of life hit me and I was back into things. Right back into jobs and auditions and class- and I remembered I love all of it.
It is such a good feeling when you’re hopping around the city. Getting around easy. Making it to all your appointments for work and for auditions. It is very fueling. It’s like you can absorb all this energy from the city and let it power you. Then there are still those days where you are at a train stop you don’t normally go to, and aren’t paying attention, and you wait ten minutes for a train that happens to be going uptown and you realize this after you sit down on the train, and you need to go downtown. This might have happened to me…today. It is also incredibly easy to absorb all of the city’s anger. And then just have it in your body. Just be angry at everything and somehow this spurs on more things going wrong. I mean, of course, it does because we are all energy and so is the world. But-today was a good day in all. If anyone has a trick to just not being angry anymore- let me know ;).
Does anyone have any New Years’ resolutions? I do. And it is to take better care of my nails. Because New Year’s resolutions feel like a lot of pressure and I never really feel like they help me achieve my goals. A non- resolution related thing I am doing is trying to go to bed at 10:30pm every night and get up at 6:30am every morning. (Shoot. It’s my bedtime like. Now.) It is so important to get consistently sleep but more specifically to sleep at the same time every day. This is so hard for me because I am usually an in bed by 1-2am kind of girl. But then when I have to switch and get up at 4:30/5am to audition or train someone- it is death and anxiety. So here I am trying to make healthier adjustments. Also we are doing whole30 again this January! So if you’d like to partake- hit me up! It’s not too late to be almost in sync with us- we just started on the 6th! And by we I mean me, and my mom, and my Joe, and my friend. Because who would want to do that alone.
This year feels different. It feels sustainable. I am doing side jobs that support my work as an actor- not side work that works against it -in a place where I have to shout, be on my feet for hours, and am eating greasy food and drinking more alcohol than I need. I am here. I know why I’m here. I want to be here. And I know what I’m doing here. I think this year I will learn how to live this life even more sustainably. I’m really only just now starting to figure it out. Tell me what you’re excited about this year.
