This week I have worked hard and rested hard. Something in my body is finally learning when not to push myself. When I should actually just stay in bed instead of getting up to take a dance class before work. Tuesday was an awesome day. I am grateful for days like these- where I truly get to do everything I am passionate about. I got to train a client first thing in the morning, I got to go to an audition, I got to study in a voice lesson, and I got to go to a workshop with a casting director. The day was awesome. And then after a few days like this I needed to rest. Because an over-abundance of a good thing becomes not a good thing anymore. I stayed home from a couple things and rested. And hopefully avoided getting sick like the rest of the city (knock on wood for me if you are reading this right now…Now I am sitting here thinking about all of the wood that is around me and realizing it was all alive at some point. And that makes me sad… the trees are my friends as I have said before. And have been known to whisper positive things to them because science has proven that plants are affected by our energy! I’m not even a vegetarian, but now I’m thinking- should I boycott wood in my home if the trees are my friends?! I won’t. But I’m thinking about it now!). I have noticed that I need more silence than usual lately. Usually I am non-stop listening to podcasts. Always trying to soak in a little more wisdom or clarity. But not lately. Lately I just need quiet. It’s like my brain is working something out- but I don’t get to know what it is yet.
I had an opportunity come up this past weekend to go perform at a dinner theatre for their holiday season. I ended up turning it down. For many different reasons. But mostly because- it didn’t feel right. Later that same day I was at an open call audition where they tell you immediately if they want to call you back. It’s kind of brutal. But then at least you know either way. As I was sitting waiting to be called the monitor would come back to deliver the news from the previous group who auditioned. This time he said “From the last group we need to keep…nobody! So thank you!” For some reason this tickled me. I mean totally brutal. But the fact that it is so directly brutal was just comedy.
I talk about how hard things are here sometimes. How challenging the business can be. But I want to make it clear- I am not going anywhere. There is
I am so grateful for the community I have here. It’s growing deeper and truer the more time I spend in the city. <3
